Istiqamah. Honesty.

You know what my problem is? 

Istiqamah.
Well, from what I understand from that word is to always keep doing that is right.

According to muslimjapan.com,

The literal meaning of “Istiqamah”: to go straight into the right direction, acting rightly, allowing no deviation. 

It is derived from the stem “Qiyyam”, which implies the continuity of doing something, following up with it and making sure that it is done in the right way and there is neither deviation nor swerving.

"the continuity of doing something, following up with it and making sure that it is done in the right way and there is neither deviation nor swerving." 

This. This is what I lack of. How did people do it? To do things over and over again without failed to reach to the final point. I'm talking this Istiqamah to reach what you want, in terms of your work, in your hobbies. I know all of that are duniyawi... But I guess, if you faith in Allah, in you isqamah in doing ibadah to the Almighty One, I guess, everything will fit into place.

I'm answering my own question here... To be honest, I wanted to write this post about, why couldn't I write everyday? I have the urge to write but wouldn't I? I blame to the notebook that I currently have does not fit with my hand (though this is right, I'm still searching for a new notebook for the new sem), I blame on the laptop (malasnya nak bukak laptop, nak taip banyak2..), I blame on the list of dramas that I should finish watching before the sem start (though this is what I did, dah abes dah drama dalam list...)

EXCUSES, EXCUSES, EXCUSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I learnt a lot through the year, making excuses is one of them and this is what I hated the most. I'm already good at lying that people don't even notice that I was lying. Making excuses and lying, I think both of them are just the same. And I don't like them. I don't like them one bit.

When you lie, you have to make up the continuity of the made up stories.... Look, I don't even have the istiqamah in lying... If you can put it that way... It's just lying is not worth it. Don't lie. Don't even try to make excuses. Be honest. Even it is hard, just be honest. People will understand.

I am thankful to those who gave me second chances. Second chances are so hard to come by. You have to really bersyukur if you got one. I got a lot of them and I am very thankful for that. Alhamdulillah. Though I made a lot of mistakes in the past, I hope you can help me grow by being honest to me, and give me another chance to improve my weaknesses and repent.

Istiqamah. Honesty.

I need to learn more about them.